Saturday, August 3, 2013

three years

 

Shouldn’t it be easier after three years? Shouldn’t I be used to it by now? But I feel less used to it than ever. When I flew home from Pennsylvania two weeks ago, I expected him to be here to greet me like he always used to be… but he wasn’t, and it felt wrong, even after three years without him.

Lenny2

I barely even have to think about that day before I am in tears again. It was like a miserable nightmare, except that it really happened. And I remember it so vividly.

There are times when I feel stupid for mourning like this about a cat. But I don’t cry for a cat—I cry for a lifelong friend, and for the gaping hole of loneliness that he left behind.

Oh, Lenny.

4 comments:

  1. this is sweet. and it isn't stupid.

    Things like this don't really ever heal all the way. YOU always feel the ache and lonesome for them.

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  2. I thought this was about Sam.... But, on the bright side, I'm starting to like kittens! (break through, how about it?)


    Love you!

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  3. I still feel sad for Lenny too. I think he was the best cat we ever had, and there is no replacement for him.

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  4. Aw, so sorry! I know what it's like to lose a kitty you love and understand your pain. <3

    Kelsey

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