Wednesday, September 10, 2014

the prayer


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I can’t get out of the Gospel of John lately. Just a few months ago, you’d have been hard pressed to find me outside of the Old Testament… drinking up the age old accounts of regular people walking with God just like me. But then something changed, and it’s the words of Jesus I want, the ones specifically spoken by Him while He walked on this earth. Sometimes I read them, sometimes I listen to audio recordings of them as I’m falling asleep… it doesn’t matter, I just want to be saturated in His voice.

John 14-17 are some of the most well-marked pages in my Bible. It’s Passover in Jerusalem, and these are Jesus’ last hours with His beloved disciples. I cannot help but feel the urgency, the weight of every word—He knows He must die, He knows He must leave them to cope with the darkness alone. He comforts them. He reminds them who He is. He promises them the help of the Spirit. He explains to them how to stay connected with Him no matter what. He tells them He’s about to die, yet somehow, in a seeming sweet paradox, He promises them ultimate joy and peace in Himself.

Then He prays.

Father, the hour has come.”

I wonder that the twenty-six verses of John 17 are not required memorization for every believer. On the night of His betrayal, on the eve of His death, Jesus spent His last minutes as a free Man praying… for us.

It’s the prayer of a lifelong theologian, packed with the knowledge and understanding of some of the most complicated truths of God and life. It’s the prayer of a high priest interceding for the desperate needs of others. It’s the prayer of a surrendered heart to a sovereign God.

And it contains some change-the-world truths—if only we’d hear them.

Jesus spoke these words, lifted up His eyes to heaven, and said: “Father, the hour has come. Glorify Your Son, that Your Son also may glorify You, as You have given Him authority over all flesh, that He should give eternal life to as many as You have given Him. And this is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent. I have glorified You on the earth. I have finished the work which You have given Me to do. And now, O Father, glorify Me together with Yourself, with the glory which I had with You before the world was.

“I have manifested Your name to the men whom You have given Me out of the world. They were Yours, You gave them to Me, and they have kept Your word. Now they have known that all things which You have given Me are from You. For I have given to them the words which You have given Me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came forth from You; and they have believed that You sent Me.

“I pray for them. I do not pray for the world but for those whom You have given Me, for they are Yours. And all Mine are Yours, and Yours are Mine, and I am glorified in them. Now I am no longer in the world, but these are in the world, and I come to You. Holy Father, keep through Your name those whom You have given Me, that they may be one as We are. While I was with them in the world, I kept them in Your name. Those whom You gave Me I have kept; and none of them is lost except the son of perdition, that the Scripture might be fulfilled. But now I come to You, and these things I speak in the world, that they may have My joy fulfilled in themselves. I have given them Your word; and the world has hated them because they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I do not pray that You should take them out of the world, but that You should keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. Sanctify them by Your truth. Your word is truth. As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. And for their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they also may be sanctified by the truth.

“I do not pray for these alone, but also for those who will believe in Me through their word; that they all may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I in You; that they also may be one in Us, that the world may believe that You sent Me. And the glory which You gave Me I have given them, that they may be one just as We are one: I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.

“Father, I desire that they also whom You gave Me may be with Me where I am, that they may behold My glory which You have given Me; for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. O righteous Father! The world has not known You, but I have known You; and these have known that You sent Me. And I have declared to them Your name, and will declare it, that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.”

John 17:1-26

Read it… then read it again. Listen to Jesus’ words. In them you will find the right response when God’s call in your life seems insurmountable. You will find God’s view of success. You will find an outline of Biblical discipleship. The definition of salvation and the definition of sanctification. The way to effective outreach. The truth of God’s amazing love for you.

I could give you the specific verse references for each of these things… but I want you to look. Search. Immerse yourself in this Word until all you want is more of it.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

august, a list


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not enough.

my husband… duh.
my kitties.

John 14-17 over and over again.

listening to:
kittens purring.
old Taylor Swift songs.

the first maple leaves fall.

to Jillian’s Hard Body—new fave.

Masterchef Season 5.

crusty bread.

to hear God speak.

my other three homes (here, here, and here).

working on:
writing a beginning ballet curriculum.
outlining a new writing project.
building my photography business.
abiding in Jesus.

for my husband’s godly example.
for my family.
for the Word of God.

for an eternal perspective on the many things wrong with this world.

Sunday, August 24, 2014

six months



Six months ago—February 22, 2014—I got to marry the best and truest man I’ve ever had the privilege of knowing.

I was told a lot of things before I got married. Some said it was going to be the best, most beautiful experience of my life; others suggested it would be a disappointment, a kind of living death that would leave me with regrets. The feminist culture of our society and the media were not on my side. I went into it with much trepidation, but even more faith—knowing without doubt that God had a plan for the two lives that Sam and I were about to make into one.

Six months isn’t a long time compared to “till death do us part,” and I suppose a lot of people will wave off my words here by labeling them part of the “honeymoon phase,” but even so I’ve learned a thousand things about marriage and about life since then. The first and most important: feminist culture, the media, and anyone who has been influenced by them to think that marriage is a form of prison is wrong.

I love being married. I love the man I married. I love that I get to see him every day and have a slumber party with him every night. I love when he’s sitting on the couch doing bills or something while I work in another part of the house—because I love just knowing that he’s there. I love our conversations about politics, theology, and world events. I love it when he loves what I make for dinner. I love our “dates” to the Costco food court and our walks through the neighborhood and our times together in prayer.

I love that I am living out one of God’s greatest gifts to His children—the opportunity to model a miniature replica of His relationship with us.

It’s hard sometimes. I can be difficult and so can he. Living in a completely new area where I don’t have many friends yet can be lonely (especially as an introvert). Sometimes I really feel like I have no idea what I’m doing, and maybe it’s true—but I never lose faith that God does.

To the unmarried who might be reading this: Marriage is beautiful, and so much fun that you sometimes feel almost naughty! But never count on a spouse to fill the preexisting gaps of your heart. Marriage won’t automatically relieve you of your loneliness, cure you of your self-pity, or fill the hole that belongs only to God.

To the newlyweds: It’s okay to be lonely and sad sometimes. Many, many people will look at you and assume that your life problems have been solved because you found The One, but you and I know that’s not true. Maybe you had to readjust to a new place or maybe you’re just trying to feel out your new role in your old friendships—either way, marriage brings change and change brings a lot of difficult emotions with it. You don’t have to be happy all the time.

To the long-married: Have patience with we who are breaking this ground for the first time. Remember what it was like in those early days for you. If it was all sunshine and roses, I’m very impressed and you should comment your secret below… but I rather doubt it, because two unrefined sinners living in close quarters is bound to raise storms eventually! So if you see us in tears now and then, don’t worry; we aren’t having second thoughts about our marriage, we’re only pulling through some of the hard things that came with it. And meanwhile—teach us by example! We have a lot to learn. :)

Happy six months to my beloved husband and best friend! And here’s to sixty+ more years.



P.S. I will post more wedding pictures soon—I’m still waiting on my digital files to arrive in the mail from George Street Photo & Video (long story on why they’ve taken so long…more on that in a future post).


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