Saturday, December 7, 2013

on beauty

 

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They say beauty is in the eye of the beholder. They’re wrong. Beauty, like truth, is an objective reality. We can have a flawed perception of both, but we can not make a beautiful thing ugly, an ugly thing beautiful, or a true thing false just by “seeing it that way.” For instance, a starry night sky is beautiful. If you call it ugly, you are wrong. It isn’t. It is beautiful. The Sistine Chapel is beautiful. A mountain range is beautiful. You can insist that the public restroom at Walmart is more beautiful than the Himalayas, but you would only be giving us a glimpse into your own insanity.
- Matt Walsh

I found these words wedged into this article (which is excellent). My initial response was surprise: I’ve quite honestly never heard anything like this said before. But my second instinct—something else I didn’t expect—was to be offended.

After all, don’t I live beauty?

Is it not the primary aim of a photographer to record beauty where it is, and create it where it isn’t? I’ve been told dozens of times that I have a “good eye”—that is, I can see beauty where other people can’t. Isn’t that my job description?

But then I stopped and I read it again.

Beauty, like truth, is an objective reality.

Says who?

Well… God.

In the very first pages of Genesis, God looks at the world He has made and calls it “good” (Genesis 1:31). Then He looks at the man who has no companion, and that’s the only aspect He calls “not good” (Genesis 2:18). Is it a stretch to say that if God defines what is “good” and “not good,” He also defines what is beautiful?

I don’t think so. After all, God Himself is the Creator of that which we innately perceive as beauty (Amos 4:13). Not only that, God Himself is beautiful (Ezekiel 1:26-28). Furthermore, God Himself created man in His image—that is, beautiful (Genesis 1:26). Unless He had breathed His own love for and possession of beauty into the very fabric of our beings, how would we even begin to recognize it?

And if God defines what is beautiful, it follows that He should define what is ugly. From what I can tell, ugliness didn’t mar any portion of His existence until a certain tragedy occurred: the mutiny of one of His own cherubim, and with it the fall of one-third of His kingdom.

Thus says the Lord God, “You had the seal of perfection, full of wisdom and perfect in beauty. You were in Eden, the garden of God; every precious stone was your covering: the ruby, the topaz and the diamond; the beryl, the onyx and the jasper; the lapis lazuli, the turquoise and the emerald; and the gold, the workmanship of your settings and sockets, was in you. On the day that you were created they were prepared. You were the anointed cherub who covers, and I placed you there. You were on the holy mountain of God; you walked in the midst of the stones of fire. You were blameless in your ways from the day you were created until unrighteousness was found in you.
Ezekiel 28:12-15

There it is: beauty first, then contrasted with the definition of ugliness as given by God. Lucifer’s flawless beauty is not immune to his unrighteousness—after the betrayal, God declares him “profane” (verse 16) and turns his beauty to ashes (verse 18). Furthermore, Isaiah 14 paints a vivid picture of the fallen angel sleeping on a bed of maggots under a cover of worms.

So, if “beauty, like truth, is an objective reality,” what is that reality?

The reality is this: God created everything that exists, and thus He defines every aspect of what He has created. He has made clear what is beautiful and the point at which that beauty becomes ugliness. According to His character and His Word, that point is when the thing of beauty becomes contrary in any way to His perfect and worthy character.

Lucifer was one of the most beautiful creations of God—but one selfish thought, one wicked idea that God might be withholding a higher honor from him, and all those jewels were traded for worms.

Yes, I’m a photographer—yes, I love beauty and I love to capture it on the light-sensor of my camera so that other people can see it. But I was wrong: I do not “create beauty where there is none.” I don’t have the power to do that. No matter how I use my “eye,” the bruises on the face of an abused child will not be beautiful. The deep depression of a girl who has been taught that being thinner will solve her self-image and relationship problems will not be beautiful. The greedy eyes of a lustful heart will not be beautiful. The illicit intimacy of an unmarried couple, the selfish blackness of an unrepentant soul, the body profaned by provocative clothing—whether found in a hunchbacked old man or in America’s next top model, they are all worms and maggots brought on by humanity’s tragic fallen-ness. By this definition, I’ve known many homely, nondescript people who were beautiful as angels—as well as many drop-dead-gorgeous people who were ugly as sin. And even with the photographic eye and technical skill of Ansel Adams, I wouldn’t be able to reverse the two.

No, manufacturing beauty is not what I do. Instead, I search for it. Everything good and perfect is from above (James 1:17)—already here, waiting to be discovered—but thousands of years of the rampant evil we chose in the Garden have buried it pretty deep in maggots.

I have to admit, “maggot-digger” doesn’t have quite the same ring to it as “beauty-maker.” Maybe I’ll just call myself a treasure hunter.

:)

Sunday, December 1, 2013

grace, weekly // 6

 

Just a few evidences of God’s unmerited favor on me that I’m thankful for as the sun rises on December…

i. my family.

Singing crazy Christmas carols, laughing hysterically, stacking wood, talking about music or football or whatever else happens to surface… I really, really enjoy having all my siblings and my cousins together once in awhile. :)

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ii. pretty arrangements of apples in the doorway and the bounty I have been given.

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iii. light, my paintbrush.

As a photography student, I might as well describe myself as a student of light—natural, available, and artificial. Like most amateurs, natural light has been my primary course of study on my own, but my New York Institute of Photography course has opened up a world of exciting possibilities with other kinds of light—as well as better ways to maximize the outdoor light I always work with.

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iv. getting excited about Christmas.

Amy has been handwriting personalized copies of her Christmas list for every member of the family and begging Mom to start getting the Christmas decorations out!

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v. kitty cats.

Cats fascinate me. :)TGiving5

vi. a godly man and 83 days to go.

The Bible says that a virtuous wife is of worth above rubies. But what about a godly man? He is rare indeed, for nothing is harder than trying to fill the symbolic role of Christ in a relationship—and he’s priceless because of it. I am blessed.

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vii. words:

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viii. music:

I am so thankful for a love so deep that neither death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither present nor future, nor any powers, any height or depth, or anything else in all of Creation can separate me from it. (Romans 8:38-39)

If you don’t know this love as your own, you need it. You can’t buy it, you can’t earn it, you can’t even borrow it from someone else—but you can take it from the Hand that offers it.

ix. Bible:

“I delight in Your law. It is good for me that I was afflicted, that I may learn Your statutes. The law of Your mouth is better to me than thousands of gold and silver pieces.” Psalm 119:70b-72

There was a time when I would have taken the silver and gold over this Book any day—it seemed so big and intimidating and difficult to understand. And spending last year learning it required more sacrifice and endurance from me than anything I’ve done in my life (so far—marriage will probably trump it pretty soon!). But I am thankful for every affliction I went through—homesickness, shin splints, sleep deprivation, classmate drama, six weeks on crutches, head lice, relationship strain, and concussion, just to name a few—because they all played a role in shaping my heart to live, love, and breathe the truth and changelessness of God’s Word. Difficulty is one of God’s most effective classrooms when the heart is yielding! It is my prayer that the Church—myself included—would count trials a small price to pay for the surpassing value of knowing the Lord intimately.

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Hallie Jo Photography

Sunday, November 24, 2013

grace, weekly // 5

 

i. those eleven-degree mornings when the world is silver-plated and diamond-studded in sunrise light.

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ii. the wonder of learning and developing as a photographer.

I’m in the middle of a distance-learning professional photography certification course from the New York Institute of Photography right now, and though some of the reading can get a bit dense, I can’t believe that I get to call it my job description to seek out beauty and portray it honestly for hungry eyes.

This is a photo I took for my first course project. I don’t consider it representative of my style at all—I think it’s the first time I’ve ever consciously stopped my aperture down to f/32! But part of learning is trying new techniques from every angle.

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iii. opportunities to teach.

I am beginning to realize that along with a love of learning, I find tremendous joy in teaching. On Sunday night, I spent an hour giving a presentation to my church about my experiences in Israel, and my favorite part was teaching about the culture and Biblical history there. On Monday, I got to take my little sister riding and teach her how to control my horse. And this morning I got to teach her how to diagram sentences in English while Mom was gone. :)

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iv. horses—pure power, beauty, and speed packaged in a form of delicate legs and huge muscles.

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v. quiet, lonesome morning walks.

I walk every day—because I can’t not. It’s when I get time to breathe, to pray, to think—without having to be doing. It’s the time when I can, for three-quarters of an hour, just be.

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vi. words:

I found these words tucked inside this gem of an article. It was a timely and convicting reminder.

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vii. music:

Listen, and breathe in the reality that He can redeem you from anything.

viii. Bible:

Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
Hebrews 13:5

In all honesty, this has been a hard post for me to write this week. Some of the blessings I’m listing here really were “wow” moments, but as the week wore on they faded into a noisy background of stress and worry and fear.

Fear. It is the antithesis of trust, the opposite of joy, and the father of many wicked children—discontentment, worry, covetousness, and the horrific stress that they cause. It is the subconscious statement of the heart: “I do not believe that God is with me, that God cares for me, or that God is in perfect control of my life.”

And there it is.

Reading between the lines of my anxious heart, I find a painful truth.

The reason that I so desperately want control over my life is that I truly do not believe that anyone—even God—loves me as much as I love myself.

Ouch.

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Hallie Jo Photography

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